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From: "Bob Tolliver" <lifeunlimited@...>
Date: Mon, 2 Feb 2004 13:44:12 +0200
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  SHOULDER TO SHOULDER #321 ---- 2/1/04

  Title:  "Longing For Home"

  My Dear Friend and Journey Partner:

  Today is another beautiful day in Kiev ---- cloudy and overcast, in the low to mid 20's, and with white fresh-fallen snow on the ground.  Snow has many benefits . . . . covering dirt, adding color and brightness (last night when I finally went to bed sometime after 2:00, it was nearly as bright as daylight outside), and muffling sound.  

  Have you ever considered the acoustical benefits of snow?  I still fondly remember those wonderful winter days in Wisconsin; after a new snow, many of the "droning" sounds were gone, and all I could hear would be the sounds of the birds and an occasional barking dog.  Maybe I should write about that sometime . . . . "The Beauties of Snow".

  Today I'm putting my "miscellaneous" items at the end of the letter simply because I don't want you to miss the thoughts God blessed me with recently.  But, they are very important, so I hope you'll read on to the end.


  Generally, God has been gracious to me in that, given time, He gives me understanding about certain things I think, see, experience, or feel.  While I may try to express those things prematurely at times, I usually begin to get some measure of perspective when I let them ride a few days or weeks.

  I began writing this letter during the early part of last week.  Then late yesterday afternoon I was asked to bring a devotional thought at our monthly missionary worship gathering.  Even though I was not done writing, I felt prompted to share these ideas with my colleagues, because I knew some might have gone through similar experiences.  Their response was amazingly positive, so I know God has taught me something very important.  Both tears and comments assured me that many people struggle with the same thing.  I'm glad to share that journey with you today.

  As I've expressed before, Jo Ann and I often find ourselves caught in the tug of war between being here and being back in the United States.  All kinds of crazy thoughts flood our minds during those times.  When we assess the pro's and the con's, we find ourselves smack in the middle of dealing not only with values and priorities, but also responsibilities and obligations.  And, where do you draw the line in such evaluations.

  Frankly, it's no exciting exercise.  Most of the time I end up feeling confused and frustrated . . . . to the point of just throwing my hands in the air and concluding, "What's the use!"

  We go through these episodes . . . . these tensions . . . . frequently.  By "frequently" I mean sometimes by the hour or even minutes!  

  After I had shared these thoughts last night, one of my colleagues said, "I'm sorry you had a bad week."  Well, actually, it wasn't a bad week at all.  It was a great week.  I wasn't depressed, discouraged, frustrated, . . . . or anything like that.  It has simply been a very important week of introspection and learning.  I'll never regret going through those frequent roller coaster rides, because they force me to "hang on" and to make the commitment, albeit involuntary, to ride it to the end.

  Not long ago, as we were discussing our future ministry and whether or not we should request an extension here in Kiev, we found ourselves again creating that bondage-building list of "Pro's and Con's".  As usual, it started out as a positive expression of genuine interest in learning God's plan.  However, it soon followed the same pattern as most, and ended up as another moment of resigned confusion and abandoned frustration.

  However, God did make one thing very clear to me as we talked about whether or not to go home to stay.  I'm still pretty ignorant about how He expresses His will. 

  He began asking me questions.  (I hate it when He does that!  His are always so direct . . . so unsettling!)

  "Bob, . . . . where do you call 'home'?"

  [Uh-oh.  Here we go again!]

  That released the floodgate of introspective questions:  "Where is home, actually?"  

  "When you say 'home', what do you have in mind?  What is 'home'?"  

  "What makes one place 'home' and another place not 'home'?"  

  [Then He hit me with the first big one.]

  "Why do you think Collins is more 'home' than Kiev?"  

  [Now I'm having to think and be introspective!]

  "What is the criteria that makes a certain place 'home'?"

  "Is any place on this earth ever really 'home'?  I did call you a 'pilgrim' after all."


  "By the way . . . . Why don't you long for heaven the way you do Kiev or Collins?"

  [Whack!!!  Whack!!!]

  It's terrible . . . . a "live skinning" where all the facade of spirituality is ripped away to leave you naked and exposed before the mirror, bleeding to death.

  But, . . . it happens.  Too often, I must confess.

  While it may be true that there is "no place like home", it's equally true that "home is where the heart is".

  And, it's also true that our hearts follow our treasure, just as Jesus said.  If our treasure is something or somewhere it shouldn't be, then that's where our hearts will be, and that is to where our longings will always draw us.

  So, the real issue seems to me to be the placement of our hearts and their affections . . . . because that's where we'll be drawn.

  Where are our real affections?  Where are our longings placed?

  A few weeks after I first began writing these letters in 1997, I was led to Romans 1:11 as my signature verse:  "For I long to see you [some versions say 'to be with you'], in order that I may impart some spiritual gift to you, that you may be established; that is, that I may be encouraged together with you while among you, each of us by the other's faith, both yours and mine."  God clearly showed me that was my heart's desire for every single reader, even though I personally knew only a handful.

  But that was six years ago; what about today?  What about my struggle with "home" today?  What do I do with my "longings"?  Do I even know what they really are?

  So, as so often the case, all I know to do is go back to God's Word.  There is at least some consolation in knowing that people as far back as Job struggled with personal longings.  "Oh that my request might come to pass, and that God would grant my longing!" (Job 6:8)  In reading the surrounding verses, I'm not even sure Job knew clearly what his own longings were.  "Longing" to me simply means a deep, inner, magnetic pull to the past or toward the future.  It is an unexplainable and sometimes uncontrollable tension that wants to return me to previous days or thrust me forward toward unknown things that intrigue me.

  So, in view of that, . . . .


  The roller coaster Jo Ann and I have ridden is neither unique nor strange.  No doubt most missionaries have taken the same ride many times over.  I can even hear a few of them chuckle as they read these meanderings of a missionary novice.  

  But, if I were to ask even them, "Where is 'home' to you?", many would defensively thrust their palms outward and say, "Hey . . . . don't ask me!  I'm still trying to figure that out for myself!"

  So, in the meantime . . . . where is home for Jo Ann and me?  Where do we go to feel "permanent"?  To feel "grounded"?  To feel "stable"?  One moment we could spend the rest of our lives here in the middle of a city of nearly three million wonderful people and a handful of grouches, and the next thought drags us on the plane headed for those wonderful 22 wooded acres of Ozark hills where the sounds of nature joyously overpower the faint drone of distant highway noise.  The sound of silence is wonderful there.

  We have projects to complete; we miss Jo Ann's flower gardens; we miss our library of 5,000 books; we miss the sounds of the songbirds interrupted by the shrieks of the bluejays and the squawks of the crows;  we miss watching the foxes playfully toss field mice into the air like toys; we miss seeing the flight of geese honking their way northward in the Spring; we miss watching the doe and her twin fawns graze outside our window.

  There are also places in America we want to go.  The longer we are away from her, the more we realize what she has to offer.  We want to return to the Northwest; we want to visit the Dakota Badlands; we want to go to the New England states and see the brilliant colors of Fall.  There are friends we want to see.  We long to see the "best man" at our wedding and his wife; we are anxious to see our board member Dave and his children following the death of his wife.  We want to see relatives.

  Yes, the longings for "home" to be there in America are real.  But . . . .

  When it comes to ministry, Jo Ann and I could not ask for anything more thrilling than right here in Kiev.  The thought of living and ministering in a place where apostles may have walked is beyond comprehension.  The idea of proclaiming the Gospel in a place with 5,000 years of pagan practices culminated by 70 years of godless ideology is without equal.  The privilege of basking in the artistic creativity of both architectural and musical masterpieces is priceless.

  And, the indescribable honor of linking arms with Great Commission believers who march to the beat of the same Drummer, and whose hearts pulsate with the same fervor, and whose lives express the same aroma of Christ simply cannot be surpassed.  Frankly, the only pressures we face here are the time-related expectations of our mission agency and the limited resources of manpower, space, and finances.  We have no power struggles, we are not top heavy on committees, we have no competition with peers, we have no conflict with colleagues, we have no power block trying to take over, we have no unrealistic demands, we have no . . . . well, we just have no complaints!

  But, . . . we do have more opportunities for adventurous ministry than we've ever had in our lives.  Over the past 45+ years Jo Ann and I have served in churches where the membership ran into the thousands, and we've served where there were less than a half dozen faithful families; but we've never served anywhere that was more exciting, thrilling, and challenging.  For the first time that I can remember, we have the freedom to minister within our giftings without too much excess baggage of duties, expectations, and demands from other people.  I can both look forward expectantly to a Sunday coming, and look back contentedly on the woven fabric of a Sunday spent.  We both can invest our lives into small groups of people bringing them encouragement, Biblical truth, and hope.  We have the time to pray, study, write, fellowship, . . . even relax together on a fairly regular basis.

  And, perhaps, most of all, we can minister to a group of people without hesitation, knowing that the success or failure of the church truly does Not rest on the two of us, but, rather, on them.  Why?  Because we know we're doing what we were called to do, and we're doing it as faithfully as we know how.  We have no need or desire to badger them, prod them, bemean them, intimidate them, or send them on guilt trips.  They know we love them, and we know they love us.  And we all know what is best for the church.

  So, when the day does come that we leave this place, Jo Ann and I will not depart carrying a burden of failure.  We will leave with that painful mixture of deep sorrow and sadness of temporal separation resting atop a mountain of joy and contentment, knowing we did what we were sent here to do.  The rest is up to the people, . . . and to God.

  HOME IS WHERE . . . :

  I mentioned the phrase, "home is where the heart is".  I've come to the conclusion that the saying is not true.  

  The heart is too fickle and unpredictable for it to stay anywhere too long.  It is a restless thing.  Because emotions of the heart are too easily influenced by circumstances and conditions, it cannot be trusted.  So, it is precariously dangerous to believe that "home" is where the heart is. . . . because the heart may relocate at any moment.

  I think this is maybe what I have been learning this past year more than anything else.  You see, my mistake has maybe been in sometimes following my heart, thinking that home is where the heart is, so I'll follow the heart.  The fact of the matter is, . . . .

  "Home is where the Father is."

  Let me say it again:

  "Home is where the Father is."

  Knowing this truth helps me understand why complete contentment never comes from a task accomplished or a place visited.  It doesn't come from things, no matter that the world tries to convince otherwise.  The feeling of being "Home" comes from people.  "Home" comes from sensing the presence of the Father.

  I'm convinced this is the case.  I still remember those times when I would return to places where I lived as a boy, thinking that we were "going back home", only to be disappointed.  The house looked smaller, the yard had shrunk, my room had lost its coziness, the sky was not as spacious.  Then Dad would walk in the room, and all of a sudden I felt like I was home.  It wasn't the place . . . . it was the presence . . . . the presence of the Father.

  Looking back over my childhood brings great memories that I wish I could relive.  Even though Dad was either a pastor or a traveling evangelist virtually all of my life, and although Mother and I had a very special relationship that Dad would never replace, I always felt like I was "home" when I was with him.  I was where I belonged.  He was where I belonged.

  The day he first taught me how to shoot a rifle when I was six years old, the day he gave me my first bicycle when I was eight, the many days we went back to the farm where he and I were both born and worked the fields with my grandfather and uncle, the scores of times we went quail hunting . . . . even those times when we traveled for hours to sit in a pre-dawn cold duck blind waiting for just three or four good shots . . . . I always felt like I was "home".

  Does that make sense to you?

  It seems to me that this is a lesson that needs to be learned . . . . it needs to become part of our very being.  "Whenever I'm with the Father, no matter where it is, . . . I'm home."

  If you take time to look up the words "longing" or "longings" in your Bible, you'll find something very significant.  The vast majority of the time it refers to something about God . . . . His people, His words, His righteousness, His presence, . . . 

  For example:

  Psalm 119:20 ---- My soul is crushed with longing after Thine ordinances at all times.
  Psalm 119:40 ---- Behold, I long for Thy precepts; Revive me through Thy righteousness.
  Psalm 119:82 ---- My eyes fail with longing for Thy word, While I say, "When wilt Thou comfort me?"
  Psalm 119:123 ---- My eyes fail with longing for Thy salvation, And for Thy righteous word.
  Psalm 119:174 ---- I long for Thy salvation, O Lord, And Thy law is my delight.
  Amos 5:18 ----  Alas, you who are longing for the day of the Lord, For what purpose will the day of the Lord be to you? 
  Romans 15:23 ---- but now, with no further place for me in these regions, and since I have had for many years a longing to come to you
  II Corinthians 5:2 ---- For indeed in this house we groan, longing to be clothed with our dwelling from heaven;
  Philippians 1:8 ---- For God is my witness, how I long for you all with the affection of Christ Jesus.
  Philippians 2:26 ---- because he [Epaphroditus] was longing for you all and was distressed because you had heard that he was sick.
  Philippians 4:1 ---- Therefore, my beloved brethren whom I long to see, my joy and crown, so stand firm in the Lord, my beloved.
  I Thessalonians 3:6 ---- But now that Timothy has come to us from you, and has brought us good news of your faith and love, and that you always think kindly of us, longing to see us just as we also long to see you,
  II Timothy  1:4 ---- longing to see you, even as I recall your tears, so that I may be filled with joy.

  Maybe Psalm 119 should be named "The Song of Longings".


  Well, here's great news, my friend!

  Psalm 107:9 For He satisfieth the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness.  The fact that you have these longings is in itself a wonderful sign.  Notice that those longings will be satisfied, and that your cravings will subside because of goodness.

  But . . . . notice the beginning of that promise.

  "He!"  Not it, not there, not when, not where.  Only . . . . "He!"

  Home is where the Father is, indeed!

  Are you a pastor who feels frustrated and alone because nothing seems to be happening?  Are you one who remembers the place you once served that was so fruitful and exciting . . . and you wish you were back there?  Are you a missionary who, like Jo Ann and I have been so often, is weary of trying to balance the drive of ministry here and the tug of family there?  Are you a church member dissatisfied with your current plight and looking for refreshing somewhere else?  Are you a mom wishing she were back home and just a little girl again?  Are you a dad wishing you could make a new start, or at least go back to the days of your youth and vigor?

  Take courage!  There's nothing sinful in experiencing the strain of those dual loyalties.  Satan will try to accuse and condemn you for feeling that way.  But, you don't need to accept his lies.

  Being torn between two places is a part of life.  It's part of the ongoing struggle between the flesh and the spirit.  It's part of the battle between carnality and spirituality.  It's part of the conflict between the temporal and the eternal.  And, especially if you're significantly involved in some type of volunteer or vocational Christian ministry, this struggle should not surprise you.

  So, don't condemn yourself, and don't accept condemnation either from Satan or from colleagues.

  Just keep one thing in mind . . . . While these feelings will ebb and flow most of your adult life (and you should accept that fact), there is still hope to be gained. . . . there is still peace to rule your heart . . . . there is still contentment to be found . . . . because . . . .

  Home . . . . is where the Father is.

  So . . . . Focusing on the Father is what keeps me Focused on the Farm, wherever the "farm" may be.  

  When you think about it, the Location of the Farm is not nearly so important as the Love of the Father.  If I love the Father, I'll be overjoyed being on whichever farm He has chosen for me to tend.

  I just hope I can remember that truth all this week.

  And you, too.

  In His Bond, and For His Glory,



  Now, if you have time, read on for other important information.

  +  MyDoom Virus Info:

  If you're not needing help with the MyDoom virus, you can skip this next section.  Otherwise, . . . .

  Here is some information you might find helpful from my Canadian friend Greg Slade, webmaster for the CAMSOC website, regarding the latest internet virus.  It includes links to some important resources.  You might want to consider signing up for Greg's update newsletter at grga@..., or checking his "church related software programs" site at www.associate.com/camsoc/crs/.

  There is a new record holder in the "fastest-spreading worm" category, and to be honest it's less of an example of clever programming than of people getting sloppy in their computing habits. It has been a while since the last really widespread worm or virus hit, so people have apparently started opening attachments from complete strangers again. (I trust that none of you, my faithful readers, have been so foolish.) 

  The new worm, which has already appeared in two variants as I write this, is most commonly referred to as MyDoom, but is also known as MiMail.R, Novarg, and Shimg. Aside from spreading itself, MyDoom appears to install a "back door" in infected computers, allowing hackers to take control of computers remotely. All of the infected computers (estimated to exceed 100,000 worldwide) are also programmed to launch a distributed denial of service attack against the SCO Group, which has offended many in the user community with its apparently unsubstantiated claims of copyright violation and threats to sue companies which use Linux. (The MyDoom.B variant also sets infected computers to attack Microsoft, which is suspected of bankrolling the SCO Group's activities in an attempt to stem the movement from Windows to Linux.) 

  The U.S. government has launched a new web site and four "cyber alert" mailing lists to notify Americans of security threats. Some might argue that the existing Computer Emergency Response Team (CERT) site was sufficient, but in all fairness, there is so much information there that it's somewhat intimidating. The new US-CERT site only contains one warning so far: about MyDoom. 

  In other security-related news, a host of software, including multiple products from Microsoft, but also including commonly-used Linux utilities like ssh (Secure SHell) have had to be patched to deal with security holes which exploit a weakness known as "buffer overflow." This happens when a processor receives more data than was expected, and the buffer set up to hold that information fills up. What happens to the extra information varies: it could crash the system, or it could "overflow" into other buffers, and possibly be run by the processor as instructions, even though the data in that buffer would not normally be executed. It's this last possibility which has been exploited by hackers and virus writers. 

  Now, Advanced Micro Devices is tackling the problem on a hardware level by building buffer overflow protection right into their chips. (F-PROT report on MyDoom: www.f-prot.com/news/vir_alert/mydoom.html CERT Coordination Center: www.cert.org US-CERT: www.us-cert.gov Krazit, Tom, "Opteron, Athlon 64 add technology to protect PCs from security breaches from buffer overflow." PC World. Wednesday, January 14, 2004. To subscribe: www.pcworld.com/resource/newsletters/subservices.asp Published by PC World Communications, Inc. Evers, Joris, "Fast-Spreading Worm Spells Doom." PC World. Tuesday, January 27, 2004. Roberts, Paul, "Mydoom Sets Speed Records." PC World. Tuesday, January 27, 2004. "E-Mail Worm Predicted to Become Biggest Yet." Edupage. Wednesday, January 28, 2004. <edupage@...> Published by Educause. Internet: <edupage-editors@...> 

  Reference: New York Times. January 27, 2004. "National Cyber Alert System Offers Cyber Alerts, Advice." Edupage. Wednesday, January 28, 2004. Reference: Sullivan, Andy, "U.S. Rolls Out Cyberattack Warning System .". Reuters. January 28, 2004. Roberts, Paul, "Can the Feds Fight Viruses?" PC World. Wednesday, January 28, 2004. Mingis, Ken, "SCO Sets Bounty for Worm Writer." PC World. Wednesday, January 28, 2004. Roberts, Paul, "Mydoom Variant Targets Microsoft." PC World. Wednesday, January 28, 2004. Roberts, Paul, "Hackers Jump on Mydoom's Coattails." PC World. Wednesday, January 28, 2004.)

  +  E-mail Epidemics:

  Yesterday I received the following statistics from the brother who hosts our e-letters.  It gives you an idea of the epidemic problem that now exists on the internet.  This should tell us two very important things:
     1.  Be sure you are well protected from viruses and SPAM.  If you don't have a program that will deal with those, such as firewalls and virus scans, you need to get them.  Even if you aren't the originator of such things, you become an unwilling participant every time your address book is accessed.  If you have, for example, 400 addresses in your book, one letter to you can suddenly becomes 400 letters which, in turn can become 16,000 letters the next go round.
     2.  Be wise in what you forward to others.  I've discovered my friends and family don't have to have every little cartoon, joke, or story that comes my way.

  Take a look at these statistics from just one server:
      In a 90 minute period during "slow time" 1200 e-mail messages were received.  13% were legitimate, and 87% was junk of some kind.  41% was SPAM and 27% was Windows viruses.  That means that over 300 infected messages hit this server in 90 minutes.

  And this is a small server compared to some.  Our webmaster goes on to say that there are times when only 10% of the messages he receives are legitimate messages of value.

  +  Another Great Site:

  It seems my list of good links at the bottom of my letters just gets longer by the month.  I hope you don't mind.  It's just that I want to keep you informed of some of the excellent resources available to us as we serve the Lord together.

  I've tried to categorize the links as follows:
  +  Our personal links for our own ministry.  That always appears right below my signature.
  +  The "May I Recommend" section contains sites relating to revival, spiritual awakening, prayer, and city/nation reaching.
  +  The "Other Great Resources" section includes sites for Bible study resources, sermons, computer assistance, etc.
  +  The  "Online Resources on Ukraine" are mainly missionary sites for work here in Ukraine.
  +  The  "Secular News. . ." gives you some news links to things happening in this part of the world economically, politically, and otherwise.

  So, may I recommend another great site I've just added today.  

  One thing is becoming more certain ---- the need for virus and SPAM protection.  Probably like you, I've received dozens of SPAM and even more reports of the Mydoom virus trying to access my computer.  Fortunately they were all caught and stopped.  Saturday I received the following report about that virus from a Canadian brother who is probably one of the most knowledgeable guys I know.  We've worked with him before on several occasions in Croatia.  He's also worked in Bosnia and in Singapore doing missionary work with computer hardware and software.

  I already carry his free software/shareware link below, but want to add this one for you so you can get reliable information 

  I don't remember seeing a site with access to so many printed and also recorded sermons by some of the Church's great preachers.  Check out www.SermonIndex.net.  You'll have to sign up, but it's free.  You'll find things there from some of the great writers of the past (Torrey, McCheyne, Spurgeon, Campbell, Ravenhill, etc.) as well as later writers (such as Cymbala, J. Edwin Orr, David Wilkerson), and many more.

  In addition you can access photographs, books, MP3 files, and so forth.  This is one of the best resource sites I've seen.  

  Do me a favor, if you would.  Take time to log on to some of the sites; if you can't get on, let me know so I can check the veracity of the address.  It's possible I may need to delete some.

  Gratefully Yours,

  Bob Tolliver -- Psalm 2:8
  Copyright February, 2004
  Life Unlimited Ministries
     www.peopleteams.org/kiev/team/tollivers.htm (Personal ministry)
     www.peopleteams.org/kiev (General team ministry)
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  May I Recommend . . . .

  If you have a heart for God and would like to be encouraged in your life and ministry, 
      and you have a burden for your church, your community, and the world, 
      then you may want to receive . . .
  www.cnsnews.com for daily world news without a liberal, godless bias.
  www.worldprayerteam.org ---- A world-wide network for praying together.
  www.watchword.org ---- excellent resources on revival, prayer, missions.
  www.waymakers.org ---- resources on prayer, evangelism, etc.
  www.operationiraqcare.org ---- To adopt and pray for a special historic city in Iraq.
  http://www.nppn.org ---- "National Pastors' Prayer Network" newsletter.  ~  
      email: phil@....  Register your PPG: http://www.nppn.org/ppg/ .
  Usprayercenter@... ---- U. S. World Prayer Center.
  www.cityreaching.com ---- City Reaching/City Impact Roundtable.
  fridayfax-subscribe@... ---- Wolfgang Simpson's "Friday Fax" from New Zealand.
  www.LifeAction.org ---- "Life Action Outreach".
  www.revivalcsa.co.za ---- "Bulletin On Revival" by Francois Carr in South Africa.
  www.yifa.org ---- "Youth Interceding For America".
  www.missionamerica.org ---- "Mission America" .
  www.lighthousemovement.com ---- "The Lighthouse Movement". Click on "Lighthouses".

  Other Great Resources Are:
  www.sermonIndex.net for access to thousands of sermons by great preachers.  Exceptional site.
  www.biblemaster.com for great Bible resources and downloads.  Exceptional site.
  www.e-sword.net (one of the best free download Bible study site I've ever seen!)
  http://associate.com/camsoc/ctt/"Christian Communications Toolkit" (using internet wisely) 
  http://www.associate.com/camsoc/crop/software.html#freewin. Free software or shareware listings,
  www.associate.com/camsoc/crs/ for church related software from CAMSOC.
      To subscribe to CAMSOC update newsletter, go to grga@....
  www.ccmag.com.  "Christian Computing Magazine", 
  ccmag-subscribe@....  CCMag discussion newsletter, 
  http://www.christiangraphicdesign.com/premierinfo.htm  Thousands of Free Christian graphics.

  Online Resources on Ukraine are . . . .

  Secular News on Kiev and Ukraine will give you interesting views at . . .